I search for a passion inside myself.  I'm not really sure a passion for what exactly at the moment, I mean, like I don't know what I have a passion for at the moment.  I want to quit being apathetic about things though, I know that for sure.

   it's not a whole genre- it's just one song "Hallelujah" (by kate voegele and other artists sing it, too).  i love this song because the lyrics are so powerful with simple acoustics in the background, because that's all it needs. 
   my favorite line is, "And love is not a victory march/ it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah".......... and not that i know all there is to know about love, or even a small fragment of what there is to know, i really do think that love, true,pure love for somebody is shown when you can be completely comfortable in being weak and vulnerable, because something bad happened, or something sad did, or something else-- but love is knowing that you can show your true heart and compassion without fear of, you know, like them using it against you.. so love isn't a victory march, where your in this state of complete and utter fascination and feel that you've won, i think it's more like this, well like us, saying we're broken and we need each other.  love is saying your broken and you need that other person, and i think that that line from that song sums it up really well.

when i am completely trusing of Jesus- when i know that nothing else really matters except loving him and loving people (mark 12:28-31), then i can fully appreciate what i have and be at peace with the person i've been made to be.

i know everyone has their own self esteem issues- be it on their looks or personality, brains, car, clothes,...- and i have my own.  But what's given me the most strength even in the face of those issues, is the fact that i CAN break away from them.  I don't have to care about what others think, because really, it doesn't actually matter.  I know that there's more to what i'm living then just the small, trivial  things i worry over and the fact that i know this and understand it has given me strength and confidence in my own being.

my home life...when i come home- from school, work, church, or just hanging out or whatever- i just know that i am Home.  it's a place where i can completely relax and be me- who i really truly am- and be loved even when i'm good or bad or ugly sometimes.  And i really really like that.

the hardest thing to change is the way you grew up (you know, if it's bad and you want to change that).  Because you grew up thinking that this way was right, or that it got you attention, but then when you're older, you realize that you might just have to change...to be a better person, or something, and then you have to watch what you say, what you do, how you act, and all these other things you never had to do before.  it's all new, and that's why it's hard.

i hope that we all can be happy- not just content, but happy- with where we're at in our lives...and make it fun if it's boring, make something happen if we want it to and not be scaredabout it.

mine was snorkeling on a small reef in Jamaica... it was so amazing with all the colorful fish and crystal water and other pretty things, but it was at times scary becuase it WAS an ocean so i was a little skittish about sharks! (but there weren't any =)

i smiled when i finished my ballerina tutu!  Originally, it was my halloween costume...but considering it is december, almost january....well, i was very excited to finally get it done!

I "house monitor"(aka babysit) some elementary-age kids if their parents go out at night, and they love to play pretend!  It makes me laugh to take part in their "top secret" plans of late night trips to Madagascar to bury treasure, then England and Australia and Russia, eqiuped with nerf guns to take out those sneaky pirates!  It lifts my spirit to see their huge imaginations, and then become a character in them!